Next week on May 14th, New Orleans rapper Mystikal will return to prison for 81 days on a probation violation after being released in 2011 after serving 6 years on a sexual battery and extortion conviction. Now the rapper speaks on having to return behind bars.

In a recent interview with Billboard, Mystikal talks about his upcoming prison sentence:

“Disappointed isn’t the word for it – ashamed. It’s hard to show up. If I stole your money and I gotta come face you again and you ask me about the money, it’s gonna be hard for me to face you in the eye. So the proof is in the pudding.”

The Cash Money rapper adds:

“Everything I was doing, the 81 days was right there riding with me — in the SUV, come on, who’s that? My 81 days. Everywhere I went, it was keeping me in check, and it’s a fight. I can tell myself all kinds of things, I can sit there and mope, or I can get out and thank those fans the way I’m supposed to, the way they deserve to be thanked. So of course I am.”

Mystikal’s 81 day prison sentence will start this Monday, and  stems from a violation of probation for a misdemeanor domestic abuse battery charge.